Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Live for today. Never wait for tomorrow.

 P.S  Alternate Title that is much too long: I met Bo Burnham, I'm going to a One Direction Concert, I'm Graduating in 7 Days not Counting the Weekend, And I'm Living Life to the Fullest
Oh, well hey there!
Let's catch up.
So....I would say I'm not the best consistence blogger. I have major problems writing on a regular basis. However, as of the latest events, that is going to change. If you haven't read about what happened at my school in the last week, here is a post about a freshmen girl, Sara who passed a way on Friday the 18th.
I have decided that no matter what happens, I will push through. I am so tired of saying that I am going to do something and then never following through. Why spend life talking about what I could do and saying I will do it later? There may not be a later.
I have learned to appreciate little things. Especially my relationships with people. Not just people I am close to, but everyone around me.

So, what exactly have you missed?
I found a new obsession: One Direction! Don't judge me! I actually legitimately like them. So, that's new. And Steph and I (pictured with me in two pictures above) bought tickets for their July 2013 concert. Yeah. I am a sad person but, I am who I am.


I also finally chose to accept my financial aid for next year at the University of Wisconsin-River Falls. I have to live in the dorms but I will survive. I hope my roommate likes the same things as me, and if she doesn't, then I hope I am able to introduce her to new things! I also hope our personalities are compatible. I just want the person I live with to be my friend. I'm 99% sure that I'm going to transfer to Columbia College Chicago after a year, though! I'm scared to do that because I want to make friends that last a long time and stuff. I don't want to make friends at UWRF and then switch schools!  I'll be fine I'm sure. It's just something I'm nervous for!

I'm very ready to graduate. People are so judgmental. I just want to surround myself with new people. I can never escape judgement but, being in a new environment is exactly what I need. I'm tired about the sly comments people make. They may be jokes but, at some point you cross the line from a lighthearted joke to a mean spirited one. I understand jokes that some of my friends will make at my expense. We joke around all the time. However, lately, I have noticed that people have begun to make comments to everyone purposely to make them feel bad about themselves. If you purposely insult something a person likes or is interested in constantly, knowing that they do, then that becomes a mean spirited thing. Yes, people throw insults around, and they also voice their opinions but, when you do it to make a person feel bad for being who they are, liking what they like, wanting what they want in life, or even feeling the way they feel, it becomes difficult to deal with.


I'm a distinctive person. I like the things I like, I act the way I act, I do the things I do. Don't insult me or make me feel bad for who I am. Don't tell me that it is stupid of me to enjoy or like what I like. All in all. Don't be cruel.
Let me be who I am.

On a more lighthearted note, I went to a Bo Burnham concert on May 2nd, 2012. It was absolutely amazing. The guy who opened for him was okay. I cut him some slack because it was obvious he was just starting out and he was still pretty funny. He played some new songs, and some old ones. His opening song was awesome. I love the way he performs. And his ending song was pretty sweet too! He sang "Nerd" and it sounded so awesome. 

Anyway, so I had twenty bucks on me and they were selling posters, dvds, and t-shirts. I wasn't sure if I wanted one so we came back after the concert and I bought a shirt because I didn't think that I would actually be able to meet him but, when I looked over I noticed a long line and realized it was the line to meet him! We only waited twenty minutes. It was worth it. He signed my shirt. We took a couple pictures and he GAVE US HUGS. He called us Jane Does so, we told him our names and he repeated them, which was wonderful. Then, right before we went to walk out the door, I slipped in that he was my best friend. I'm such a fan girl. 

He was super chill. So, that was a good night. Actually, it was the BEST NIGHT EVER. Bo Burnham. Touched ME. Twice.

 Love you all. Stay beautiful.

 P.S. I'm sorry that this post was so long. It's been a while since I posted.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Live for today.

On Friday, my school had "Dinner Show" it is a special choir concert we put on at the end of the year.
This years Dinner Show did not end as planned.
At 3:40pm Friday May 18th, a truck flipped. Two students, a freshman girl and junior boy were treated and sent home with just a few scratches. However, a freshman girl named Sara was ejected and the car rolled on top of her. They announced the crash and her death at the choir concert right before intermission. My choir had just sung and they told us to stay onstage. Most of my choir already knew right before we went on. Some had to leave the stage. It was the most surreal moment. Standing there, watching as a hush fell over the crowd. As, people I knew broke down, as my superintendent took the stage and told us there was very tragic news.

I take my life and my friends for granted.
She was 14. In my little sister's grade.
They used to be friends.
Sara, you have changed my life in more ways than you know. You were beautiful. And you will always be remembered. I never talked to you. And I will regret that with each passing day.
Your family and friends are in my thoughts and heart.

I have made the decision that from now on, I am going to live life for today, and I will never wait for tomorrow.

I am so sorry for everything I have done. I love you, Sara. Rest in peace and happiness. You died much too young. <3

I think that this will be a lesson to my entire school. I feel so much more aware of my relationships now. I feel so much more grateful. That is because of you. You changed my life, Sara. Thank you.

Stay beautiful.