Graduation and Family

I graduated from high school on June 3rd. And I had college orientation last week. It still feels so surreal! I just don't really know what I am supposed to do with myself now. I know that I am done with that chapter of my life, but it doesn't feel real for me.
It's really nice to be done, but really scary to be beginning a new life for myself.
Graduation day wasn't really anything special. I really just wanted it to be over with as soon as possible. I did however, get some pretty cute pictures. :) And I planned out that we would take family pictures as well. It was a nice weekend. I'm glad I got to see my family. :)

Every time my family is all together (which is hardly ever) my mum likes to take family pictures. One year it was Christmas themed (this was when we all lived together. One year it was black clothes (I lived with my mum and sister-elementary school). And one year it was white (I still lived with my mum and sister-high school). Well, it had been two years since I last saw my brother. The last time he came out to see me was the last time we took our family pictures. I also was in Fiddler on the Roof as a man and I had an awesome beard. So, Jordan and I spent the last two years telling my Mum that we were going to do family pictures with mustaches as our theme for our next family pictures! And we finally convinced her. :)
I wore my graduation dress for the pictures and they actually all turned out quite nice.

My sisters. <3

Oh. Life is good. I was a little stressed because I had to move everything out of the place I was living and into another friends house, but I did it. And now I am just happy. :)

Stay Beautiful.
Kaili

Live for today. Never wait for tomorrow.

 P.S  Alternate Title that is much too long: I met Bo Burnham, I'm going to a One Direction Concert, I'm Graduating in 7 Days not Counting the Weekend, And I'm Living Life to the Fullest
Oh, well hey there!
Let's catch up.
So....I would say I'm not the best consistence blogger. I have major problems writing on a regular basis. However, as of the latest events, that is going to change. If you haven't read about what happened at my school in the last week, here is a post about a freshmen girl, Sara who passed a way on Friday the 18th.
I have decided that no matter what happens, I will push through. I am so tired of saying that I am going to do something and then never following through. Why spend life talking about what I could do and saying I will do it later? There may not be a later.
I have learned to appreciate little things. Especially my relationships with people. Not just people I am close to, but everyone around me.

So, what exactly have you missed?
I found a new obsession: One Direction! Don't judge me! I actually legitimately like them. So, that's new. And Steph and I (pictured with me in two pictures above) bought tickets for their July 2013 concert. Yeah. I am a sad person but, I am who I am.

I also finally chose to accept my financial aid for next year at the University of Wisconsin-River Falls. I have to live in the dorms but I will survive. I hope my roommate likes the same things as me, and if she doesn't, then I hope I am able to introduce her to new things! I also hope our personalities are compatible. I just want the person I live with to be my friend. I'm 99% sure that I'm going to transfer to Columbia College Chicago after a year, though! I'm scared to do that because I want to make friends that last a long time and stuff. I don't want to make friends at UWRF and then switch schools!  I'll be fine I'm sure. It's just something I'm nervous for!

I'm very ready to graduate. People are so judgmental. I just want to surround myself with new people. I can never escape judgement but, being in a new environment is exactly what I need. I'm tired about the sly comments people make. They may be jokes but, at some point you cross the line from a lighthearted joke to a mean spirited one. I understand jokes that some of my friends will make at my expense. We joke around all the time. However, lately, I have noticed that people have begun to make comments to everyone purposely to make them feel bad about themselves. If you purposely insult something a person likes or is interested in constantly, knowing that they do, then that becomes a mean spirited thing. Yes, people throw insults around, and they also voice their opinions but, when you do it to make a person feel bad for being who they are, liking what they like, wanting what they want in life, or even feeling the way they feel, it becomes difficult to deal with.

I'm a distinctive person. I like the things I like, I act the way I act, I do the things I do. Don't insult me or make me feel bad for who I am. Don't tell me that it is stupid of me to enjoy or like what I like. All in all. Don't be cruel.
Let me be who I am.

On a more lighthearted note, I went to a Bo Burnham concert on May 2nd, 2012. It was absolutely amazing. The guy who opened for him was okay. I cut him some slack because it was obvious he was just starting out and he was still pretty funny. He played some new songs, and some old ones. His opening song was awesome. I love the way he performs. And his ending song was pretty sweet too! He sang "Nerd" and it sounded so awesome. 

Anyway, so I had twenty bucks on me and they were selling posters, dvds, and t-shirts. I wasn't sure if I wanted one so we came back after the concert and I bought a shirt because I didn't think that I would actually be able to meet him but, when I looked over I noticed a long line and realized it was the line to meet him! We only waited twenty minutes. It was worth it. He signed my shirt. We took a couple pictures and he GAVE US HUGS. He called us Jane Does so, we told him our names and he repeated them, which was wonderful. Then, right before we went to walk out the door, I slipped in that he was my best friend. I'm such a fan girl. 

He was super chill. So, that was a good night. Actually, it was the BEST NIGHT EVER. Bo Burnham. Touched ME. Twice.

 Love you all. Stay beautiful.

 P.S. I'm sorry that this post was so long. It's been a while since I posted.

Live for today.

On Friday, my school had "Dinner Show" it is a special choir concert we put on at the end of the year.
This years Dinner Show did not end as planned.
At 3:40pm Friday May 18th, a truck flipped. Two students, a freshman girl and junior boy were treated and sent home with just a few scratches. However, a freshman girl named Sara was ejected and the car rolled on top of her. They announced the crash and her death at the choir concert right before intermission. My choir had just sung and they told us to stay onstage. Most of my choir already knew right before we went on. Some had to leave the stage. It was the most surreal moment. Standing there, watching as a hush fell over the crowd. As, people I knew broke down, as my superintendent took the stage and told us there was very tragic news.

I take my life and my friends for granted.
She was 14. In my little sister's grade.
They used to be friends.
Sara, you have changed my life in more ways than you know. You were beautiful. And you will always be remembered. I never talked to you. And I will regret that with each passing day.
Your family and friends are in my thoughts and heart.

I have made the decision that from now on, I am going to live life for today, and I will never wait for tomorrow.

I am so sorry for everything I have done. I love you, Sara. Rest in peace and happiness. You died much too young. <3

I think that this will be a lesson to my entire school. I feel so much more aware of my relationships now. I feel so much more grateful. That is because of you. You changed my life, Sara. Thank you.

Stay beautiful.

My Own Ruby Red Shoes.

Hey!
Last night, I went to see the Wizard of Oz at the Minneapolis Children's Theatre.  http://www.childrenstheatre.org/
It was absolutely amazing. It really made me excited for college. I hope that one day, I get to be on stage like "Dorothy Gale" performing. And I hope that I find my true home soon. There truly is no place like home. It was beautiful.  <3

 from: minnesota.cbslocal.com

I am an Artist

                The lights are raised and I have the capability to overcome everything that crosses my path at this moment. The audience sits quietly in their seats waiting to hear what I have to say next. I step forward, speaking as rehearsed. Each sentiment is lingering within my spoken words, etched upon my face. Every action has fluidity, each pause has a purpose. Theatre is more than speaking the lines you are taught to. Theatre is a safe haven where it is acceptable to release your emotions. It is a positive place to express your true beauty. I am an artist on a stage, I am an actress. 

               Each note sounds beautifully melodic from the piano, I sing confidently, remembering to look around at the people seated in the room and not just the judge. Each person in my double trio works together and balances each other, we are each our own little piece of the puzzle. Each crescendo is stronger than the last, each forte becomes more confident. After we are finished, we smile knowing that we just accomplished something amazing, proud to have made it this far. Solo/Ensemble creates an environment to be proud of. I am an artist with a voice, I am a singer.

 found on http://lecourtier.tumblr.com/post/6579620906

                One more stroke, just one more; don’t breathe off the turn. Just keep your eyes down and mind focused. The water laps around me and all I can hear is my own heart beat in my ears. I flip turn, seeing my team look at me and cheer me on. The adrenaline rush courses through me, I feel like I can fly through the water. Every stroke is long, smooth, creating the illusion of flying through the water.  I hit the wall time board hard and I exit the water, uninterested in my place, but full of pride for what I just did. Swimming is the best way to push yourself forward. I am in artist in the water, I am a swimmer.

                The first witness is called to the stand and you can feel the tension already building in the room. The witness answers each questions with poise, looking to the judge during their answer. Each objection pushes me. I am prepared, I know my materials, my case and I know how to excel in the courtroom. Mock trial is where I gain my confidence. I am an artist in a courtroom; I am a mock attorney and witness.

                The cake rises and turns a beautiful shade of golden. It is frosted and decorated. Every detail is important. Every ingredient is carefully controlled. I bake because only I can know how it will turn out. The kitchen is where I learn self control and sufficiency. I am an artist with an oven, I am a baker.

 found on http://www.etsy.com/listing/79140347/cupcake-land-collection-sugar-plum?ref=tre-1399287057-7

 found on http://favim.com/image/224246/

                I am an artist on paper.

                I am a dreamer.

 from: http://urock-my-world.tumblr.com/post/15318829661

                This is how I choose to express myself. 

 found on http://lecourtier.tumblr.com/post/6579620906

One day, when I am a successful interior designer, actress and baker. I will look back and think about all the things I have been through. I will realize how much I have overcome. This is what I know to be true. 

I love you all. And I appreciate your support.

Always,

Kaili

headed to Chicago

Thanks for the wifi Monsier Avion.. If only I didn't hate you so..
love, me.

November Month Update through pictures.: Harvard, Boston, Visit with the Family

In the last month I have:

VISITED BOSTON! Spent two days at Harvard University with my Mock Trial team!
I was told by a Harvard Mock Trial student that my yawn sounded like Pikachu!
I ate Lobster.
Walked the Freedom Trail.
Ate a whole bunch of sweets at the best Bakery in the world!
Fell in love with Clam Chowder.
Saw actual protest inside of Harvard (Wall Street Protests.)





In short, Boston was amazing!

Then, for Thanksgiving, I visited my family in Illinois and had another fantastic time :) Sadly, I don't have any pictures. :(

But I do have some senior pictures I haven't posted yet that I took last month as well! :)

Sorry for the picture overload. I'll see you guys later this weekend :) When I can finally get some well deserved sleep! <3